Dark Dreams

I *dream, yes I dream a lot
I see darkness but I fail to believe
I don't try to understand
I can't understand, few months down the line, NO!

I know time is short
I also know time is just an illusion
I am scared, very scared, scared enough to give up this life
Because I know only few months are left

I don't want to think about it
Infact, I just can't
I don't want to shed unwanted tears
Until offcourse that is the price to help that dear one

I see darkness, but I don't want to see it
So I day dream of light, of hope
Yet I am scared
What if my hopes are shattered again

I have seen darkness(indirectly)
And it troubles me
I can't face it
Because there is not a single drop of light

I may sound weird and/or depressed
But the fact remains
I am trying to avoid seeing darkness
And trying to avoid the "Can be"

I might sound creepy
But just thinking about all this starts to fill my eyes with tears
I don't want to face darkness
I am still too young

I don't know why I hope
Or how I hope
There is nobody on this planet as a saving grace
Yet I have no choice but to hope, lest I may ...

For once this darkness seems eternal
And I just want to escape
But I need a helping hand
Which is not exactly so easy to facilitate

If you have got my message
Please consider an humble request
Save me from this darkness
Before it is too late!


*dream mostly/fully means day dreaming and thinking about 'you know what', or spending moment(s) in thinking/wondering.
darkness doesn't mean physical darkness but times when there is only pain(which mite/is sweet), only misery and suffering and things which are worse than the end(and you know end can be related to xxxxx).