> It pains

I am sorry for disturbing you
And causing you pain
For upsetting your life
And believe me I understand you, and I really do!

I respect your feelings, your emotions and reactions
Though they cause me intense pain
But I don't blame you
Because it is not your fault

You are right, and will always be
But I hope, I just hope
That someday, you understand, or atleast try to understand: me
And see how it feels to be drowning in this pain

I don't want to hurt you, I don't want you upset
But I am ruined, ruined totally
Because I couldn't face you,
And hell, I still can't despite your giving me ample space

I don't have the courage,
Nor do I have the guts
But trust me, my feelings for you are as genuine, as can be
I have feelings, and it hurts, really bad

Your happiness is my happiness
And your sorrow is my pain
But atleast try to understand me, once
For I too am a living being, and I have feelings, and it pains

I understand you are finding it difficult
And it is me who is at fault
But won't you forgive a single mistake that I committed
Or will you make me regret it for the rest of my life

It is not nice, to see you upset
You appear angry
And I can never forget
That I disturbed your life, be it just for a second,

And it pained me,
It really did
For your sorrow is my pain
And I just can't see you upset

I respect you and your emotions
But I also request
Please don't forget that I too am human
And I too have a heart

Which has feelings,
And it aches, and aches the crap out of me
Am I an untouchable
For you to treat me like dirt

I still respect you, and will always do
But it doesn't feel nice
To be treated as if one doesn't have feelings
Because it pains, and I can't bear it

It pains, pains,
I respect your decisions
But I am a human after all and I do have feelings
And believe me, it pains!